Monday, June 15, 2009

Are you in a State of Paranoia?

Sometimes we thought we're just JEALOUS? I think its about time we differentiate the two.

Paranoid personality disorder is listed in the DSM-IV (Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders) - this disorder is characterized by a pervasive distrust and suspicion of others such that their motives are interpreted as malevolent, beginning by early adulthood and present in a variety of contexts, as indicated by four (or more) of the following:

  • Suspects, without sufficient basis, that others are exploiting, harming, or deceiving him or her
  • Is preoccupied with unjustified doubts about the loyalty or trustworthiness of friends or associates
  • Is reluctant to confide in others because of unwarranted fear that the information will be used maliciously against him or her
  • Reads benign remarks or events as threatening or demeaning.
  • Persistently bears grudges, i.e., is unforgiving of insults, injuries, or slights
  • Perceives attacks on his or her character or reputation that are not apparent to others and is quick to react angrily or to counterattack
  • Has recurrent suspicions, without justification, regarding fidelity of spouse or sexual partner.

Those with paranoid personality disorder are hypersensitive, are easily slighted, and habitually relate to the world by vigilant scanning of the environment for clues or suggestions to validate their prejudicial ideas or biases. They tend to be guarded and suspicious and have quite constricted emotional lives. Their incapacity for meaningful emotional involvement and the general pattern of isolated withdrawal often lend a quality of schizoid isolation to their life experience.


Tuesday, May 19, 2009


"I always thought that falling in love for the wrong person is the worst that anyone has to endure, but I was wrong, it's actually falling for the wrong reason."

I always tell myself that things happen for a reason, nothing is coincidence. Things happen because it should happen, everything is inter-related with each other, every s i n g l e event. Recent event proved me right, once again. I was so damn eager to push it through, i honestly don't know why, but i wanted to. It didn't reveal itself until the day after its done. It served its purpose.

"I thought I'll never get over it, i thought I'll be forever stuck in this limbo, in this madness, I never thought that it will take just one freaking text message to wake me up."

Now, everything is clear, it had never been as crystal clear as now.
Now, I can safely say, i fell for the wrong person and for the wrong reason. I can definitely walk away from it,without the guilt that i didn't give it a fair fight. I did! (up to the last minute, actually). Now i can walk away and never look back.

*But knowing myself..i'm still keeping my fingers crossed..*

The torture of expectation

Being hurt is one of the most painful emotion one has to go through. Some can take it, but others just can't, especially when the cause of the pain, is the person that means a lot to you. I happened to belong to "the others" that can't take it. And it leaves me always wondering and asking why, why do they end up hurting me? I often think, its not fair. How can it be fair? There's no way its gonna be fair,right?

You think about them every time,take care of them, worry about them, love them. They consume most of your time, your energy, but then again, they don't appreciate any of it, what's worst, they don't even recognize it.

But i came to the realization that, they don't intend to hurt me, (or maybe that's what i want to believe) I, maybe, doing it to myself. Why did i come up with that thought? I don't know, perhaps it's because i am expecting too much from them, unknowingly, i want them to give back what i am giving to them, the exact amount of time, love, effort, care and everything.

So it safe to say that, they dont hurt me, i am doing it to myself.

Lesson: "Don't expect anything in return."

Saturday, April 25, 2009




Damned! why do i have a magnet for A$$holes, bastards, P.I.A and the whole animal kingdom..Geese!!!

welcome back

It's been a while, i know right?! Well, i've got lots of stuff goin on in my mind, but i can hardly think of anything to start with. Probably within the next day or two we'll be back in business.


blessed be.

Wednesday, April 8, 2009

TIME off

In lieu with the Lenten season, expect no chismax for the whole week.

"so me help me God"

miss you guys!!

Saturday, April 4, 2009


The readers have decided..

the favorite character for the month of March is none other than "THE WINE."

Truly, she's still getting better!

I wonder what she got me for "pasulubong" though..