"I always thought that falling in love for the wrong person is the worst that anyone has to endure, but I was wrong, it's actually falling for the wrong reason."
I always tell myself that things happen for a reason, nothing is coincidence. Things happen because it should happen, everything is inter-related with each other, every s i n g l e event. Recent event proved me right, once again. I was so damn eager to push it through, i honestly don't know why, but i wanted to. It didn't reveal itself until the day after its done. It served its purpose.
"I thought I'll never get over it, i thought I'll be forever stuck in this limbo, in this madness, I never thought that it will take just one freaking text message to wake me up."
Now, everything is clear, it had never been as crystal clear as now.
Now, I can safely say, i fell for the wrong person and for the wrong reason. I can definitely walk away from it,without the guilt that i didn't give it a fair fight. I did! (up to the last minute, actually). Now i can walk away and never look back.
*But knowing myself..i'm still keeping my fingers crossed..*
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
The torture of expectation
Being hurt is one of the most painful emotion one has to go through. Some can take it, but others just can't, especially when the cause of the pain, is the person that means a lot to you. I happened to belong to "the others" that can't take it. And it leaves me always wondering and asking why, why do they end up hurting me? I often think, its not fair. How can it be fair? There's no way its gonna be fair,right?
You think about them every time,take care of them, worry about them, love them. They consume most of your time, your energy, but then again, they don't appreciate any of it, what's worst, they don't even recognize it.
But i came to the realization that, they don't intend to hurt me, (or maybe that's what i want to believe) I, maybe, doing it to myself. Why did i come up with that thought? I don't know, perhaps it's because i am expecting too much from them, unknowingly, i want them to give back what i am giving to them, the exact amount of time, love, effort, care and everything.
So it safe to say that, they dont hurt me, i am doing it to myself.
Lesson: "Don't expect anything in return."
You think about them every time,take care of them, worry about them, love them. They consume most of your time, your energy, but then again, they don't appreciate any of it, what's worst, they don't even recognize it.
But i came to the realization that, they don't intend to hurt me, (or maybe that's what i want to believe) I, maybe, doing it to myself. Why did i come up with that thought? I don't know, perhaps it's because i am expecting too much from them, unknowingly, i want them to give back what i am giving to them, the exact amount of time, love, effort, care and everything.
So it safe to say that, they dont hurt me, i am doing it to myself.
Lesson: "Don't expect anything in return."
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